Makeup or Mask?

MAKEUP IS SIMPLY AN EXTENSION OF THE PERSONALITY AND COLORS, CLOTHING, MAKEUP ALL EXPRESS SOMETHING.When I started Sixth Form it was at a completely new school where I knew nobody at all. I used this to my advantage and remade myself. I turned up wearing thick foundation and concealer; my skin looked almost clear. No one knew that beneath the caked layers I had bright red blemishes and ugly purple acne scars.

This use of makeup continued. I never went to school without wearing makeup, even when I had a cold and my nose ran more than Usain Bolt. Even when I woke up with only half an hour to make it school because I slept through my alarm. Even when I my anxiety got so bad there was a 50/50 chance it was going to be cried off. I continued to hide beneath my makeup.

It took well over a year for the friends I made at that school to see me without makeup, and when they did I couldn’t stop apologising. I don’t know why though. It’s my skin and they don’t have to deal with it. They probably didn’t even care.

I realise now how much I hid behind that makeup. It gave me this sense of confidence that I never have with my bare skin, but also this sense of fear of people’s reactions if they saw the ‘real me’. There’s a fine line between when makeup is a way to enhance your features and when it’s just a mask. I think I crossed it.

After I left Sixth Form I stopped wearing makeup completely for a while. It wasn’t fun anymore; it was just a chore. I only saw my friends and family and I didn’t need to impress them. In a strange way this did help me feel more confident. I grew to accept my poor, blotchy skin and didn’t care as much about what people thought of it.

Over the past few months the condition of my skin has improved dramatically, to the point where I don’t really need to wear makeup. But now I want to. And I think that’s what makeup is supposed to be.

You should be able to feel comfortable enough to go in public without makeup and not care about what other people think. If you do wear makeup it should be a choice, something you actually want to do. It’s a form of creativity, a way to boost your confidence, not something to hide behind.

So here is me…


What you see above is me both with and without makeup. A year ago I would have never have done this, but now I don’t mind. Both of them are me.

What’s your opinion on makeup?


January Favourites 2016!


This is my first monthly favourites post this year, and on this blog. I used to put this post on my book blog, so if you want to check that out just click here.

This one is going to be a long one because I happen to have a lot of favourites this month, so bare with me!



Catrice Ultimate Stay Lipstick in shade 140 ‘Behind The Red Curtain’ – I am loving lipsticks right now and this one is my current favourite. This is cruelty free, a good price, creamy, bright, a wonderful red, and stays quite well too. Basically it’s pretty much perfect for me.

Doll 10 Precision Foundation Brush No. 4 – This was a Christmas present from my mum and is made from many incredibly soft synthetic fibres, and it has made my foundation look a lot better.

Coconut Oil – I have been using this as makeup remover, general facial cleanser, sometimes moisturisers, and a hair treatment for my thoroughly damaged hair, so I had to add this is!



MacBook Air 13″ – I got this baby for Christmas from my parents and I absolutely adore it! It doesn’t require updating everyday like my old laptop, and it’s just so lovely! My parents actually filmed me opening it and apparently my reaction was hilarious. And no, I am absolutely not posting that video!

Pirongs 2016 Wire-Boung Week-to-view Diary in ‘Daisy’ – I’ve been trying to be more organised and this pretty diary has helped so much! I write everything down in here from blog posts to to-do lists, and it’s all colour coded.

‘Oh for FOX sake’ Mug – My boyfriend got me this for Christmas and I absolutely adore it! It’s the perfect morning mug for me because that’s generally how I feel in the morning – and there’s a cute fox on it!



Mythbusters – I found this on Netflix and this is the perfect TV show to play in the background when I’m doing other things.

Lose It by Oh Wonder – This is one of those songs that is so upbeat, well put together, but completely unique. I also love the music video.



Graphic novels – I had only read a few graphic novels before last month, and I completely fell in love with the two I read in January: Saga, Volume 1 by Brian K. Vaughan (Writer), Fiona Staples (Artist) and Nimona by Noelle Stevenson. I now really want to read more!

Greatest Inspirational Quotes 365 Days to More Happiness, Success and Motivation by Dr. Joe Tichio – This has a quote for each day of the year, so I have been reading a new quote each day and it’s given me something to think about each day. Here is today’s quote:

“It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.” – Seneca

The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern – This book is unbelievably beautiful and is now an all time favourite of mine. I wrote a review for it on my book blog, so if you want to check that out click here.

I hope you enjoyed my first monthly favourites post of the year, and on this blog!

6 YouTubers for Down Days

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I spend a lot of time when I’m down watching YouTubers and I realised recently that there are some in particular that I go to when I just feel utterly crap. Some of these aren’t my favourites YouTubers, but they are still the ones I go to on bad days.

To go to their YouTube channels just click their names in bold and it’ll take you straight to their channels.


Carrie Hope Fletcher
Carrie Hope Fletcher is a fellow bookworm who is not only an unbelievably talented musician and actress, she is an author, a Disney lover, and is one of the most positive people I have ever come across, and on a down day positivity is needed.


Jamie Jo

If you like art you should check Jamie Jo out. She is one of those people who has an absolutely adorable personality meaning you want to hug her the entire time, plus she is also incredibly talented. There’s something really therapeutic about watching her paint and make things, and it really does help calm my mind.

Alex Denmon

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Alex has two channels, but I only follow his vlogging one. This is where he films random clips throughout his day everyday. They are quite repetitive, but there’s something about being a part of someone else’s day that reminds me that there’s more out there than just me.

Clevver Style/Beauty Break

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If you want beauty tips from a YouTube show, I would suggest that you don’t watch this. This is basically a show where a couple of hilarious women try out weird beauty and lifestyle products, and quite often they fail miserably. This is a light-hearted show that’s great for when you just wanted something light and fun to watch.



Doddleoddle, or Dodie, is an amazing musician with an angelic voice and a talent for writing songs that are incredibly easy to connect to. Some of her songs are tear worthy, so if you just want sad music in the background while you feel crap I highly suggest her songs. There’s one in particular called Down which makes me cry every time.



Lilly Singh, or Superwoman, is downright hilarious. Her videos about different types of people and her “parents” reacting to stuff are so funny they are bound to lighten the mood, even if it’s just a little.

I hope these help in someway, and, if they don’t, at least you know of some new YouTubers!