I’m usually one of those people who scoffs at the idea of New Years Resolutions, as not only are they normally the typical sort of things such as losing weight or quitting smoking, but they never really work. If I knew at this time last year I would have my own resolutions I would have thought I had been brainwashed. I haven’t. I’m more desperate than anything else. Desperate for change that is.
Here are my resolutions will hopefully lead me to the change I need:
TRY THERAPY – This is at the top of my list, which shows how important I view this. I have clinical depression and anxiety, both of which I am fully medicated for, but all I have had to deal with it is medication and the support of my friends, family, and boyfriend. But over the past six months I have been slowly considering going to therapy. While before I didn’t really think it would help me, now I think it’s necessary to at least try it.
BE POSITIVE – With depression my thoughts become clouded and dark quite often, sometimes due to the chemical imbalance which is screwing with my brain, other times because my brain is just stuck thinking that way. I want to reduce this darkness a lot so I can be happier.
GO OUT MORE – I have very little drive to do anything. In fact I’m forcing myself to write this so I can actually get these thoughts out of my head. So, as you can imagine, getting myself to go out is a challenge, especially when you add anxiety into the mix. But I want to try and go out more, just so I can say, “I did something today that didn’t involve binge-watching TV shows on Netflix.”
START STUDYING – Over the past two years I have failed at making it to my AS-Level exams twice, due to, again, mental health. This year I want to try again, and succeed at getting to where I want to be.
COMMUNICATE MORE – I’ve always been one of those people who is incredibly lazy when it comes to talking to people and replying to messages. This is even more important since pretty much all my friends are in England and messaging each other is one of the few ways to keep up our friendships. This year I want to at least try and speak to people more.
BECOME MORE ORGANISED – I am a messy person by nature, even though I hate when things are disorganised. It actually makes my anxiety worse too because I like being able to see tidiness and know where everything is. That’s why I need to try and be more organised.
BECOME HEALTHIER – I may be a vegetarian, but that sure as hell doesn’t mean I’m healthy. I tend to skip meals and each a lot of junk food, especially chocolate, and with just having Christmas you can imagine how much chocolate I have leftover. Chocolate is my nemesis as I am lactose intolerant, meaning it makes me feel sick and makes my skin break out in horrible spots. So being healthier is needed. I might even exercise too! (I just snorted loudly at that).
BLOG MORE – I enjoy blogging a lot. I love the community, being creative every time I make a post, having something that shows all my handwork. So I want to blog more this year. Or at least blog more than I have been blogging in the last few months.
STOP PROCRASTINATING – I procrastinate pretty much everything, from eating to getting out of bed, and I think that needs to stop. I want to get things done! I don’t want to spend my days doing nothing!
So those are my New Years Resolutions. Some of them are quite serious, but that’s why I created this blog, so I can be brutally honest about my life in hope that writing my thoughts down will help me deal with them.
I want to know if you have any resolutions this year, or at least what your opinions of them are.
I hope you had a great 2015 and have an even better 2016!